Has anyone else ever felt like they were being sucked into their dreams? I've been having vivid dreams lately, every night. They're not nonsensical ones either. They make sense and wouldn't be out of place in the real world.

When I wake up, its all I can do to stop myself from rolling over and falling back into the dream. It's probably also got to do with the weather being so frickn cold and my bed being so warm.

But I dunno. I look forward to sleep and dreaming.

Anyway, unrelated, but I watched Schindler's List the other night. It was fantastic, but sad.

Gotta get back to studying. Two tests and four days to go.

After all this time, I suspect that my dream job has always been to work for Pixar.

It could just be nostalgia, getting caught up in drawing and then watching the visual inspiration that is Wall-E. Chances are, that kind of job isn't all its made out to be anyway. But if the result is something like Wall-E or Ratatouille or Finding Nemo, who would care?

Being a psychologist is all well and good, and I would be happy doing it, but its not something people dream about (generally). It's a great, practical application of skills in the real world, a field that is conveniently open to me.

I was reading the wikipedia article on John Lasseter (creative officer at Pixar) and it says he was classmates with Tim Burton and Brad Bird and was taught by some of Disney's core animators. Frickin lucky fellow. It makes me wonder how much of this is actually luck - given Pixar was a rapidly failing hardware company before it decided to switch over to animation.

I think one reason I'm so attracted to this idea is because it's exciting. It's constantly progressing and there is a very definitive end result. The result is timeless and you can make many people happy at once. Whereas in psychology you get hit with dead ends, inconclusive studies and vague associations. In clinical psych, I'm wondering how many patients ever really 'get better'. Will they really become happy people once they leave my office, or will they rely on me, will I take away their money and exacerbate problems...and does anyone actually ever change?

The fact that I'm back to where I was when I was five, idealising art as a life choice indicates that maybe I haven't changed much. Ugh, who knows how many people have had this dream. Many of them are probably on this site. Anyway, I can console myself with the idea that people working in Art/animation don't always go to uni, so for now I'm on an okay track.

1. Need to improve on faces, expression.
2. Improve and do backgrounds more often
3. Have pictures where people actually do things: no frozen people
4. Draw scenery.
3. Learn to animate